"There is a beautiful kind of pain.
The electrifying kind that jolts you awake
like a dose from a defibrillator or one too many shots of caffeine;
the soothing kind you clutch to your chest like a child would his teddy;
the kind that mutters soothing words into your hair and holds you as a mother might.
(a pain like flushing your mind through a blender,
turning it into chicken feed,
And bleeding the world though your soul)
your addicted to it -
to chewing the world apart like scrap paper through a shredder -
you want to live it, hold it, marry it, taste it, be it;
Come home each night to find it waiting for me in the bathtub,
soaking me in its acid...
Agony is sugar-coated, wrapped in silk and duty-free;
it licks through your skin and bleeds its impurities.
Bloodletting was used to purge evils
and your am old-fashioned.
There is a beautiful kind of pain,
and I'm too afraid to let it go."